"Every current relativity is trivial and a drunken giggle comes out through an eternal euphoric smile. " -Emmanual (Jason) Snyder
Something I wrote a long time ago...
I’ve been on the verge lately
I’ve been thinking lately
I was sitting down of late
yesterday...to me, though I was late
in my search for myself lately
and lately i’ve been thinking
“How come it took so long to find you”
much, much too late to waste thinking about a wasted life
spent without the company of you...to the moon
where distance might be seen as an inch between us
i think i’ve been on the moon lately.
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Thursday, September 20, 2007
The Pendulum
"And we can't help but notice that we're apart
through time and space we're brutally divided
though i've read in God's Words that they're not even real,
i squint through my prayer and i still can't see you."
-Juliet Wing
Lately, I've forgotten what it is like to be sincere. I wonder if I ever knew what it was. I feel humbled by the sheer impossibility of it, because I feel this or that in a moment and nothing at all in another. I get angry or disappointed in others when they fail to connect with me, yet I push away or ignore just as readily as anyone. It seems to me that the cruelty of borders is our anchor in this world. Nothing is more disorienting than grief for those who die, because I can feel the separtation between myself and them lift and all that is left is a hallowed void where connection to them comes like breath; invisible and primordial. The most sincere moments have existed for me in the recession of drilling grief and when the clarity of this emptiness passes everything seems so allusive and pointless.
I fear what must be done. I fear what must be done. I am afraid of what will never come.
through time and space we're brutally divided
though i've read in God's Words that they're not even real,
i squint through my prayer and i still can't see you."
-Juliet Wing
Lately, I've forgotten what it is like to be sincere. I wonder if I ever knew what it was. I feel humbled by the sheer impossibility of it, because I feel this or that in a moment and nothing at all in another. I get angry or disappointed in others when they fail to connect with me, yet I push away or ignore just as readily as anyone. It seems to me that the cruelty of borders is our anchor in this world. Nothing is more disorienting than grief for those who die, because I can feel the separtation between myself and them lift and all that is left is a hallowed void where connection to them comes like breath; invisible and primordial. The most sincere moments have existed for me in the recession of drilling grief and when the clarity of this emptiness passes everything seems so allusive and pointless.
I fear what must be done. I fear what must be done. I am afraid of what will never come.
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